A trial

Charming Undeniability

Saeed — Thu, 20 Nov 2008 15:30:08 +0000

Well, I’m not good at words. I somehow find it pointless to try putting what is in my mind into words.

but yet “a trial”…

I saw an innocence that I cant deny! And I cant prove! It doesn’t bother me not to be able to prove it, it’s very normal that one may not be able to study something so carefully and accurately ,as needed for a proof, in such a complex being.

but when it comes to my disability to deny, …

“a trial” fails!

blackbox

Saeed — Wed, 19 Nov 2008 21:22:57 +0000

I’ve lived long enough to have learned that not everyone could necessarily be a white box to me. Sometimes all you see is the inputs and the outputs but how on earth is that possible to recognize a box with inputs and outputs. It’s usually not possible to try many inputs. particularly if you anticipate a complex box!

then it comes the time that you feel terrible, confused, handicapped. Not even a tiny guess that could satisfy both this mean logic and that vulnerable feeling.

Vague

Saeed — Wed, 19 Nov 2008 21:21:42 +0000

Some time in the past, through a very complicated scenario, I felt that nowhere, exactly nowhere, is safe.

I only felt it.
It wasn’t something I could learn.
I no longer feel it.

This memory, a bitter one, will always remind me of a person.
One for whom I always wish luck.

Ark Royal

Saeed — Wed, 19 Nov 2008 21:12:12 +0000

It rarely happens that I feel like reading a blog or stuff like that on the net. I have no idea why! maybe my eyes get tired quickly, maybe my mind is always pointlessly busy like I’m always in a rush of life streams, maybe I’m too selfish. I really dont know. But regardless of whatever reason I’m the way I am, I think there’s sth wrong with it. I mean so many people enjoy doing this and I also like the whole concept but I’m not involved even a bit. Particularly that I am frequently criticized by a very beloved friend of mine for being away from this enormous sharing of intellectual properties ! So I’m here to give it a try :)